Again I’ve taken a few weeks off my project. At first it was time to mull over what I had learned from Echo. Then it became a ‘who is next’ time. It kept morphing and I would like to just get back to a being period of time. Echo opened my eyes in that she made me realize, or re-recognize that there are an limitless amount of approaches to life. All you have to do is pick one or a few, and go for them.
What is your favorite quick meal?
Peanut Butter for sure!
What are your favorite films?
American Beauty, Candy, and Magnolia are just some off the top of my head. I love movies that force you to have some sort of reaction other then anger and being grossed out ( I like those movies dont get me wrong! They are just too easy).
Bitter
Is one of my favorite words. It is only because of the gut wrenching feeling it gives me every time I hear it for I remember its familiar sting. It is one of the most intoxicating feelings I can think of. It is so powerful and It engulfs me..takes me over like a drug…when ever I do feel it. To me it is far more powerful than hatred because It lingers. It turns a person Into a pit of dispair. Bitter people really tend to stick out like a black fog in the room.
This is why when I hear it, it takes me back to those days when I felt it. I understand the word and so now it’s easy for me to let bitter feelings pass through me and fade away. For some reason really breaking it apart and defining it helps me see it for what it is and let it go. So… hopefully in those moments when I let bitterness sweep me off my feet and take ahold of me I can remember to break it down again like I have now so I can move on.
- Echo Nittolitto
As I grow older and gain experiences I’ve learned to cherish moments more. Yeah people say that all of the time and when Your painting your parents house for them after working for a month straight with only 2 days off its easy to lose sight of that….BUT as I was painting I somehow managed to remind myself that one day I wont be able to paint anymore because I will be too old to and my body wont allow me. I wont be able to vacuum or clean the toilette because My bones will be too brittle. SO when that popped into my head the painting process went by so much faster and I enjoyed the results far more than I probably would have before. Now I will always be okay with painting even if I am tired and annoyed.
I believe this sort of mentality is becoming engraved in me. Even though moments are painful now they really do shape who I am….every single little moment…And Im grateful. I’m grateful for the people who say mean things to me, Im grateful that my dog ran away, Im grateful that I got bitten by that brown recluse and that I have cavities in my teeth. I’m grateful my dads a hard ass and Im grateful my mom is confused. Im grateful that I get zits and Im grateful for every person who ever broke my heart. This is starting to sound like a therapy session I know BUT I am grateful because One day Im not going to be able to have those experiences again and even though they are bad they are something.
I want to live my life to the fullest and I think Im going to go ahead and do that now. I let things get me down all of the time even when I know time will heal the problem. Time to start looking forward and living each day. Its time to forget what is gone and I need to accept that I cant change a single thing that has happend in the past. I define what my life is going to be like and I plan on living it up.
" — Echo Nittolitto
Have you always felt comfortable modeling?
Definitely not! when I first started I was very self conscious, insecure, and afraid to let go. It took meeting the right people to inspire me to move forward and get over my issues.